Some toddlers like
Ashraf see the dark side of humanity very early on, while some kids like Venkat
think it is all part of growing up. Did Deepak and Vignesh have a childhood
similar to Ashraf and Amal? Will they grow up to become Professor Rajesh or Manny?
Read on.
Toying hard and soft
At the age when
kids sucked on lollipops and played with toys, the 2-year old Ashraf was made to
suck something else and play with an object meant for adults. Manny (male nanny)
forced his junk into the innocent kid’s mouth and taught him how to make it
hard and soft with a mere touch.
His story begins
with history
Venkat visited his
classmate Ashwin under the pre-text of preparing together for the upcoming quarterly
exams. While explaining the 1857 revolt fueled by the animal fat coated
cartridges, Venkat (sexually abused by his cousin while teaching him math) slid
his hands into Ashwin’s shorts triggering his pistol to fire.
Still a verb: Parking to playing
Targeted by his
family and extended family for being a bit effete, Amal was swamped in a cloud
of dishonor, confusion, guilt. The fifteen year old frequented parks to escape
humiliation seeking peace and clarity. A few men pretending to play the role of
a counselor, read through Amal’s handwritten drafts about his suffering and
confusion. Eventually, Amal parked his pen and found peace in playing with their
penises.
Topping before the exam
Finding Albert to
be different from rest of his students, Professor Rajesh invited him home
promising him of extra lessons before the exam. Studious Albert accepted the
invite and showed up at his house on a Saturday afternoon. Albert expected
professor's family to be around, but to his surprise there was only the
professor at home. Soon, the sexually starved predator moved the lesson from
the living room to his bedroom. Two months later when the semester results were
out Albert discovered he not only topped his professor, but also the
class.
Sailing boats seldom
need anchors
Deepak wasn't
physically attracted to Arjun, but he had an emotional need to find an anchor
family in the new city where he had moved for a job. Seeing his friends and
colleagues move up the corporate ladder and migrating outside the country,
Deepak wanted to follow their footsteps. While traveling on a project to US,
Deepak found an opportunity to disclose his permanent desire to settle down
there and his ongoing relationship with another man to Arjun.
Who takes the blame?
Orthodox upbringing
and focused approach to acquiring multiple medical specializations forced Vignesh
to suspend his sexual explorations and digressions until his late twenties. Away
from his family and settled in his profession, Vignesh started a long distance relationship
with Arpan. Every time Arpan left the city, Vignesh’s bottled up wild side came
alive and he began indiscriminately corresponding with random men he met online
and hooked up with a few. Is it orthodox upbringing, delayed start or long
distance between them?
Whose fault is it?
Harish’s father vanished
from his life when he was seven and as a result he ended up growing up around
women (mother and three sisters) nursing an emotional void in him. He dated men
twice his age and reasoned that he was looking for grey hair and wisdom, but in
reality he was looking for a father figure that he was missing since childhood.
Sadly, none of his relationships lasted because he was emotionally clinging and
financially expecting from all of them.
Is this all normal?
Do you find a reflection
of you in any of these characters? Do you think these kids will grow up to be
normal adults, hold a faithful relationship or find a partner who will heal
their wounds and experience a peaceful family life? Or will they be cruising in
parks, work places and lurking in the online world (Grindr, Scruff, Tinder,
etc.) like restless ghosts?
Past and present
Ashraf and Amal are
same individuals. Ten years ago, Ashraf was dumped by Deepak for another man. Seven
years later, Deepak divorced his same-sex partner who is now in a live-in with
his best friend in Europe.
Ashwin is a younger
self of Albert. And Vignesh is the adult version of Albert. After multiple attempts
to hold a relationship (Anand and Arpan), Vignesh is convinced hooking up to be
less painful and made it his way of life.
Professor Rajesh
and Harish are biologically related – yes, father and son. Manny is Venkat’s
maternal uncle. Genetically engineered!
This is us for all
seasons and reasons!
